The Arrest That Was, Then Wasn’t

I was sitting at my desk, going over the list of stuff that I needed to focus on for the One Spark event that was to start in a few hours when someone in the newsroom called out my name. I looked up and she nodded her head to the screen.

“Are you seeing this?” she asked me.

“Seeing what?” I asked. I looked to the monitor at my left and saw nothing, because it wasn’t on. Then I looked father at the monitors on the wall. The top one shows CNN, the bottom one is a gathering of all the shots that we have access to. On CNN, it said “Sources Tell CNN Bomber ID’d” or something to that nature. I stand up, walk over to it and read it again.

“Oh, my God, seriously!?” I say outloud, looking over to the producer who caught my attention. She nodded and I immediately posted it on our social media sites. Facebook and Twitter jumped alive, clinging to the words I had posted about how CNN confirmed that the suspect in the Boston Marathon bombings had been ID’d. I asked about putting CNN on the monitor  next to me so I could pay attention to it and follow what was being said, and I don’t know how much longer it was after the first posts I made went out…but CNN was confirming that an arrest in the Boston Marathon bombing had been made.

They said they had confirmed with a local LEO as well as the feds. I posted it to Facebook and Twitter.

Soon, there was a story on our website, published by the service that helps us keep News4Jax alive. I posted that as well.

Kent went on air, talking about how CNN confirmed an arrest. He talked to our crime and safety analyst.

Then CNN started to backtrack. I only caught part of the interview with the person who was first quoted as getting the confirmation. She kept saying things like “Conflicted reports” and “bad communication” and so on and so on. They are backtracking, recanting their first reports that had been going on for almost an hour. My heart dropped as I realized that now, I too would have to recant what was posted.

And I was just so looking forward to the onslaught of hate I was going to receive.

Then, a few hours after the mess, I see posts from two people – of which I work closely with – talking about how we need to confirm everything before we post it, that being first isn’t always the answer, and how we lose the faith of the media when things like this happen. I felt like a child being talked down to for trying to do something before I was allowed to, or expected to. It’s frustrating and insulting…but it’s also a really harsh reminder of a lot of things that could go wrong.

And boy, did things go wrong.

I have a million thoughts going through my head as I think about it. I’m furious that I was made to look like a fool by CNN – I trusted them when they said that they confirmed the arrests, and shared that with my readers and followers on our station pages. It’s bad enough we have given the public at large plenty of reasons to question the media, this just adds to it. It infuriates me when I have to deal with the readers and followers, spewing hatred left and right about how we missed the mark on this, and how we should confirm everything before posting and blah blah blah.

It’s a damned if you do, damned if you don’t situation: If I never posted anything, I would have gotten “Why the hell is CNN saying this and you aren’t reporting it?!” When I did post it, and it turned out to be wrong, I got “Why didn’t you confirm your information before posting? This is why you can’t trust the media!” — I post something that is confirmed by CNN, and get cheers. I recant what CNN said because they weren’t actually accurate, and I get slammed. It’s a no win situation.

I’m frustrated, offended, and filled with guilt when I hear people I respect criticize the  media for “jumping the gun” and posting without our own confirmation. It’s CNN, one of the most famous and trusted news organizations known. Then when AP confirmed it, I felt more confident in posting it. I’m well aware that these two were not necessarily criticizing me but I feel like they were because of what I posted. I’m sure everyone else who posted the CNN confirmation are feeling the same way.

We didn’t mean to make a mistake…we just happened to make one thanks to CNN.

I think what it boils down to is exactly what my EP Stacey Readout posted in her blog. Double and triple checking your facts before going on air and “confirming” that a suspect has been ID’d and then arrested is professional practice. And sometimes being first isn’t always the best thing to be. But, newsrooms have to be able to rely on their affiliates; knowing that when they say something it’s accurate, trustworthy and firm. We have to know that the partners we work with are doing just as much hard work we are, and we have to know that we can rely and trust each other.

Because right now, my faith is dwindling much like the followers and viewers who are calling us out like we were the ones who reported it wrong, no matter how many times I wrote “confirmed by CNN.”

oh, hello…

Somewhere in the world I lost three months. I’ve been so busy trying to keep up with work, with Idiot Runner Girl, and with trying to be a good wife and daughter that I missed this blog. I’m sorry, fellow readers. I didn’t  mean to do that to you. I’d love to give you a recap on what happened over the past few months, but I don’t think I can.

I don’t remember everything that did happen.

I know I ran some races. I know I celebrated Valentine’s Day with my dreamboat and one of my best guy friends since he couldn’t spend it with his sweetheart. I know my Dreamboat had a birthday and it was a bbq with friends and alcohol. I know that I turned 33.

I know that I was able to get our social media pages at work fired up and high, with lots of interaction. I know that I suffered migraines and dealt with the loss of some relatives, drama, and on-going confusion as to what was going on with my father’s health.

Other than that, it’s a bit of a blur. But that’s why I have photographs to jog my memory.

I just wanted to touch base with you and let you know that I will do better about keeping you updated. I’ve been focusing more on Idiot Runner Girl than anything else. I need to focus on this blog as well, giving myself an outlet for media and life stories as well.

I promise, starting next week, you’ll see a few posts a week.

I love you all.

~Jamie

They Say…Image is Everything.

I’m not a fashionista. I’m not the kind of girl who gets a thrill in dressing up in my most glamorous outfits and heels and heading out for a night on the town. I tend to be more the jeans and flip flops girl, the one who is  most comfortable wearing shorts and a t-shirt or a tank top, flip flops and hair pulled back up into a pony tail.

Sure there are some girly aspects to my style. I love doing crazy things with my hair, and I almost always have some eye make up on. I’m always wearing a necklace of some sort as well, most of the time my star fish I got in Hawaii, and I always have my rings on unless I am running. I like my jeans to fit well, and I like to feel pretty.

But seriously – that’s where it stops for me, and I was reminded again what a huge thing Image is yesterday while at work. Doesn’t help that I am surrounded by beautiful people covered in MAC make up and fancy suits.  Continue reading

Over The Cliff – Pros and Cons

I don’t know much about the Fiscal Cliff, even though I’ve been covering it for months now. I couldn’t tell you what it means to me, how it helps or hurts me, or what it will mean for my taxes. I can tell you that according to the thing I read yesterday, our yearly taxes will go up. And I can tell you that based on what I read on my paycheck…I’m making less take home.

Well, that’s not fair. I had to change my medical benefits this year as well, and am having to pull more money out to cover those expenses. Don’t ask me to explain the health fund, though. Because trying to figure it out myself gives me a headache.  Continue reading

A Year in Review – Hindsight is 20/20

Oh, 2012. You haven’t been very  nice to me. Sure, you have given me some pretty amazing things…but on the opposite end of the spectrum, it’s been pretty miserable. So many things in my life have suffered this year because of things that are outside of my control, and it bothers me that I feel beaten up, broken down, and ruined.

When I started this post, it was before everything that happened in Connecticut. Suddenly all the things I was going to complain about going wrong in my life this past year seems…mostly trivial. I’m not going to say all trivial, because I don’t see health issues as that….but the rest of it, I do kind of feel like it is trivial.

So instead of complaining about how this year has sucked and how many things went wrong, I’m going to share with you my resolutions and goals for 2013.

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Sandy Hook Elementary…my opinionated opinion

I have been trying to find a way to write this post for days now. I’m sad, and tired, and broken down emotionally…and just haven’t been able to find the words. Days later, after the funerals have begun and more details are released, I’m finding the words I so desperately have been searching for in order to put a logical explanation of how this entire thing is making me feel.

And I do have a lot of feelings about the entire situation.

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my organizing wake up call

One of the biggest pains in the ass is trying to get your shit together so that you can function properly, while doing everything that you NEED to do as well as everything that you WANT to do.

I love keeping things organized and neat. I like having planners and having specific times to get things done. I like being able to knock things out as I see them. I don’t, however, have the ability to stick to that when I get really distracted (ooh, shiny!) or am trying really hard to make one specific thing work properly.

Like a new job as a Social Media Producer with no real direction as to where to go with it because it’s a brand new position.  Continue reading

…the morning after…

I’ve had four hours of sleep in the last 36 and I’ve spent more than half of that at work. I was running back and forth in and out of the studio, pulling up photos our viewers had sent in and tweets from people all over and trying to keep up with the monitors behind my anchor so we didn’t post any curse words on air (which we did….twice or more at least)

I worked hard in trying to get all of my stuff on air without any real drama, and I did sans one mistake. I left here feeling exhausted but pretty confident in my work…especially after the compliment I got from my news director. It made me feel good and feel like I did help. Then, when I woke up this morning and started reading the crap people were still spouting, I got angry.

Maybe it’s the lack of sleep, but I’m pretty sure it has more to do with just being over the political drama that seems to turn  normal human beings into biggoted, racist and disrespectful assholes.

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